Title: Just something I want to share.. Post by: titia on December 15, 2006, 11:07:56 AM This isn't chit-chat, but it is just something I want to talk about, I hope you understand.. in a way it is fractal related...cancer is fractallike, and I am very fractalrelated too :-).
**************************** Yesterdaymorning the nurse told me I looked like a birdie... Yes...I know, my body looks fragile and weak...but inside it must be still very strong. No..., I'm not sure I am very happy with that... But...I don't want to write about sad things, I think you know them, so... My cancer-treatment is palliative, it means I can't be cured, but my life can be extended, maybe even for some years. But there has to be a balance between quality and quantity in life, and quality is more important. The chemo's are very heavy and there are so many side-effects... It lookes as if the cancer is at rest at the moment. That is why the docter and I decided to have a break. To have some quality in life again. Maybe my body will be a bit stronger when Christmas arrives, maybe my taste will be better again: not the taste of chemo. Oh, I am really looking forwards to that :-) Titia Title: Re: Just something I want to share.. Post by: David Makin on December 15, 2006, 11:55:13 AM Hi Titia, my best wishes in your fight to keep your quality of life as long as possible. I confess I have not much idea what struggling with cancer is like - my worst time was when I had suspected appendicitis :) and I've not known anyone close who's suffered with cancer.
Title: Re: Just something I want to share.. Post by: eNZedBlue on December 15, 2006, 12:08:19 PM titia,
Quote Yesterdaymorning the nurse told me I looked like a birdie... Whenever I used to ask my grandad how he was doing, he used to tell me he felt "like a box of birds!". I still have no idea what he meant by that, lol.I hope you have a Happy Christmas and a Merry New Year, or vice versa. Best wishes. Title: Re: Just something I want to share.. Post by: GFWorld on December 15, 2006, 06:02:35 PM Oh, I am really looking forwards to that :-) Beside all Titia I really enyoy to read this - my thoughts are with you the whole time ;)Titia I send you some Christmas Decoration, Foto from today, a very simple play now with Fe Sterlingware and Texture here :) (http://i11.tinypic.com/2qnvazs.jpg) Margit Title: Re: Just something I want to share.. Post by: Sockratease on December 16, 2006, 12:25:57 PM I'm glad you emphasize Quality of Life!
You have a healthy outlook and I wish you The Best! Peace.(http://i106.photobucket.com/albums/m278/sockratease/peace.gif) Title: Re: Just something I want to share.. Post by: titia on February 06, 2007, 08:48:13 AM Dancing in the Night (http://excalibur.renderosity.com/mod/gallery/media/folder_138/display_1375154.jpg) This is one of my oldest fractalimages: "Dancing in the Night". I thought it was a fitting image/title for what I wanted to tell.... The doctor, my husband and I have decided to go on with the "quality of life" treatment. At the moment the cancersymptoms are far less aggravating than the side-effects of the chemo. The chemo is solely palliative and could extend my life more, but I think it is better to enjoy life than to have many years. Besides....in the end I will die anyway. I am very grateful to God He has given me belief: I am not afraid of death...and I am not afraid to live. Because of my belief I have no stress, no fright for the things to come. So....I am Dancing in the Night :-) love, Titia |